Entries from February 2009 ↓

This week I lost 0.2kgs, taking me back down to 74.4, where I was two weeks ago. That’s not the fantastic result I was looking for this week, so it’s time to evaluate my progress.

Things that I’ve been doing wrong:

• I eat figs off the tree in my backyard and don’t count them
• I lose the plot on the weekend and tell myself that it’s OK because I can still lose weight just being good during the week.
• I nibble little bits of cheese in the evening and don’t count it - (I’ve fixed that this week by buying individually wrapped portions instead of a block)
• I eat biscuits out of my desk drawer at work - (I’ve fixed that by asking a colleague to keep them in her desk until I need them for a planned snack)
• I’ve been drinking more than I need to on the weekends.
• I haven’t been weighing my portions.

Things I’m doing right

• I’ve been very consistent with planning my week and sticking to my planned meals.
• I’ve been reasonably consistant with my exercise.
• I’ve been researching new ways to build strategies to help me resist unplanned eating.

Overall, I think what’s going on is that when I first started dieting, I could get away with a few little cheats. But now I’ve reached a point where my weight is lower and I need to be more careful and eliminate those little cheats if I want to continue to lose weight and not plateau.

Before my ex-web host lost all my posts I had quite a few posts about recovering from compartment syndrome surgery. I’ve now created a new page with a kind of synopsis of my recovery process. You can check it out in the link on the right hand side of this page.

Today I’m tired. The kind of bone-deep tired which usually results in fast food and chocolates and PB toast. It’s simply because I’ve had a long week and a late night last night. I’m looking forward to a sleep in tomorrow, followed by coffee witha friend and some shopping.

In the meantime, to head off a tiredness binge, i am going to remain aware of my eating today, and remind myself that food won’t make me feel better. I’m going to read my motivation list now.

I’ve also asked my colleague at the next desk to keep my box of biscuits in her desk so I don’t snack on them. That may be the most important move  of all - at least they’ll last long enough to be my planned snacks next week!

I stumbled on This Post By Katie at Thin enough for the gym. It really made me think. I will probably post about it again when I have had time to digest the message, and I will definilty add this to my motivational sayings for maintenance.

Today I had a weigh in at the gym. I hadn’t weighed in last week, but over the two weeks I had lost 1.3kgs. I’m pleased with that. If I could maintain that rate of loss I would be at my goal in no time. About 4-5 months actually.

I’m feeling motivated again. It’s been a while since I’ve felt that real rush of well-being, like I’m firmly on track and have no fears about the path ahead, no concerns about caving in or failing.

I think the reason that I lost that motivation was just a natural swing. Maybe partly because of the holiday season and it’s aftermath, I got out of routine which shook my confidence a bit, as I struggled to get back into it - particularly my early morning gym visits.

I got my motivation back by simply doing the hard slog. Forcing myself to have a couple of good days, stick to my eating, get up at Dark O’ Clock and hit the gym. After a couple of days, I fell back into the routine and that was it. Easy street.

Imagine a current of water flowing towards an island. The edges of the current are turbulent, eddies washing all over the place.  But once you get into the current, it’s a pretty smooth swim out to the island, you just have to make little corrections to stay in the current. If you don’t make those adjustments, a stray eddy can sweep you back out into the ocean, and you’ll have to fight to get back into the current.

It’s definitly worth fighting across those eddies, it only takes a couple of days of routine and pushing yourself to stick to your new healthy habits, before they become easy and then you’re in the current and it’s just an easy swim to paradise!

1. Read my current list of motivational exerpts from diet books. Re-affirm my goals.

2. Pick out sayings and exerpts from the two diet books I have not done yet. Finish list. (In Progress)

3. Email list to myself at work, set a reminder to read it each day.

4. Create a script with repetitions and combinations of sayings on the list. Send to work email and put on calendar to read each day.

5. Create an MP3 of myself reading the script, with soothing backing music, and download to my MP3 payer to listen to on the train each day.

6. Download the hypnosis tracks I got last week to my MP3 player, and listen each day.

This weekend I ate the same way I used to when I was ‘off’ my diet. This is the reason why I got fat in the first place, and if I continue to do so, I will undo all my hard work.

Also, defeating my chip addiction is going to take a lot more than a simple declaration.

Yesterday I attended the most beautiful wedding ever. The scenery was lovely, the ceremony was very simple and very moving, and totally suited to the bride and groom. The atmosphere in the room was wonderful, everyone there had a great time.

I know she reads this blog, so Peta, You were just the most beautiful bride, the whole day was perfect, and I wish you and Owen all the happiness in the world. Have a great time in Fiji!!

Love, Ness XXX

Today I weighed in at 74.6kgs. This is a gain of 0.2kgs for this week, however I don’t feel bad about that as I think it is mostly water retention, because TTOM is due tomorrow.

This means that I have had two consecutive weigh ins under 75kgs, which means I have achieved my second mini goal!! Yay for me!!!

I will have to think of a suitable reward for myself !